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Post by HawksStock on Jul 27, 2008 16:16:49 GMT -6
That is right, it's gone. Most people wear holes, alcohol eats away at those holes and creates ulcers. I have no ulcers, but now I have no stomach lining.
I was hospitalized on Tuesday. It was insane (the pain). The kept giving me morphine to no avail. Then they gave me something called delotnin(sp?)- which by the way is great stuff. Right now I'm on prilosec (probably for the rest of my life), and Vicodin (until the prilosec takes affect). My diet for the time being sucks, I'm so fucking hungry. While my diet may return, o'l stock is on a permanent liquor ban.
Fuck this world. A world without whiskey?, Rum and Coke?, or perfect Margaritas?
That is probably why I haven't really had an opinion on anything.
Go ahead and vote obama, the world can't get any worse anyway.
I'm might as well become a Marxist who believes in redistribution and UN rule.
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Post by Iowafan1 on Jul 27, 2008 17:12:20 GMT -6
Its a future of vanilla ice cream for you young man! That ain't so bad.
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Post by socal on Jul 28, 2008 7:55:23 GMT -6
I was hospitalized on Tuesday. It was insane (the pain). The kept giving me morphine to no avail. Then they gave me something called delotnin(sp?)- which by the way is great stuff. Right now I'm on prilosec (probably for the rest of my life), and Vicodin (until the prilosec takes affect). My diet for the time being sucks, I'm so fucking hungry. While my diet may return, o'l stock is on a permanent liquor ban. f**k this world. A world without whiskey?, Rum and Coke?, or perfect Margaritas? Sorry to hear Stock, It sounds like your stomach itself became one HUGE demi-ulcer. Which doesn't sound pleasant at all. Listen to the Docs - and stop dwelling on the lack of alcohol - but IMO... as once your lining rebuilds itself, you could again "savor the flavor" - but not near the synapse-blocking volumes of your habit. (which in itself is a good thing) PS - Thanks for your Obama endorsement. |
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Post by lpcalihawk on Jul 28, 2008 8:39:10 GMT -6
That is right, it's gone. Most people wear holes, alcohol eats away at those holes and creates ulcers. I have no ulcers, but now I have no stomach lining. I was hospitalized on Tuesday. It was insane (the pain). The kept giving me morphine to no avail. Then they gave me something called delotnin(sp?)- which by the way is great stuff. Right now I'm on prilosec (probably for the rest of my life), and Vicodin (until the prilosec takes affect). My diet for the time being sucks, I'm so fucking hungry. While my diet may return, o'l stock is on a permanent liquor ban. f**k this world. A world without whiskey?, Rum and Coke?, or perfect Margaritas? That is probably why I haven't really had an opinion on anything. Go ahead and vote obama, the world can't get any worse anyway. I'm might as well become a Marxist who believes in redistribution and UN rule. Start smoking weed |
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Post by thunderhawk on Jul 28, 2008 9:58:37 GMT -6
That is right, it's gone. Most people wear holes, alcohol eats away at those holes and creates ulcers. I have no ulcers, but now I have no stomach lining. I was hospitalized on Tuesday. It was insane (the pain). The kept giving me morphine to no avail. Then they gave me something called delotnin(sp?)- which by the way is great stuff. Right now I'm on prilosec (probably for the rest of my life), and Vicodin (until the prilosec takes affect). My diet for the time being sucks, I'm so fucking hungry. While my diet may return, o'l stock is on a permanent liquor ban. f**k this world. A world without whiskey?, Rum and Coke?, or perfect Margaritas? That is probably why I haven't really had an opinion on anything. Go ahead and vote obama, the world can't get any worse anyway. I'm might as well become a Marxist who believes in redistribution and UN rule. I hardly drink anymore due to lack of opportunity. Truth be told, I really don't miss it that much. Although I do imbibe in the occasional Fat Tire. Haven't been drunk in years though. |
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Post by Saggitariutt Jefferspin (ith) on Jul 28, 2008 10:33:12 GMT -6
That is right, it's gone. Most people wear holes, alcohol eats away at those holes and creates ulcers. I have no ulcers, but now I have no stomach lining. I was hospitalized on Tuesday. It was insane (the pain). The kept giving me morphine to no avail. Then they gave me something called delotnin(sp?)- which by the way is great stuff. Right now I'm on prilosec (probably for the rest of my life), and Vicodin (until the prilosec takes affect). My diet for the time being sucks, I'm so fucking hungry. While my diet may return, o'l stock is on a permanent liquor ban. f**k this world. A world without whiskey?, Rum and Coke?, or perfect Margaritas? That is probably why I haven't really had an opinion on anything. Go ahead and vote obama, the world can't get any worse anyway. I'm might as well become a Marxist who believes in redistribution and UN rule. Start smoking weed While it's not my cup of tea...if altering your state of mind is a must, and you need a buzz, maybe this is a viable option. Otherwise, try sobriety for a a while. You'll probably hate it first, but it's not an overrated state of mind itself. |
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Post by ignatiusreilly on Jul 28, 2008 10:56:19 GMT -6
Sorry to hear this news HawksStock. Hope everything works out.
Does this mean you are going to make sense now? That's a bummer, I like reading your incoherent ramblings. You just can't make that stuff up.
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Post by HawksStock on Jul 28, 2008 16:46:08 GMT -6
Sorry to hear this news HawksStock. Hope everything works out. Does this mean you are going to make sense now? That's a bummer, I like reading your incoherent ramblings. You just can't make that stuff up. Hey, when I'm sober there are few rhetoricians that can match me. Thunder, thanks for the encouraging words. LPC, last night I started withdrawals (it took a whole six days to start), a friend of mine brought over some weed. She was out by 12:00, I didn't get to sleep until 6:30 AM. I felt high when I first started smoking @ around 10 PM. I took my vicodin and smoked weed (good stuff) copiously until I finally "passed out", but had absolutely no high. My body was just kicking out to much adrenaline. Right now, aside from withdrawals and forced dietary changes, my time off is nice. My employer is being very supportive, they'd actually offered to send me to rehab in the past (if I wanted it). Wednesday I go in for the probes ( to make sure my intestine and stomach are otherwise A OK). Then I'll re-enter life on Thursday assuming I'm as fit as my blood work and CT's indicate) In college I tried Marijuana regulation, it didn't work. I have nothing against pot smokers, I do realize the medicinal benefits, and enjoy some blueberry, white widow, or bubblicious from time to time- but its just not my thing. It's just a strange adjustment for a gluttonous personality to make. IE- If I were to demand spoils of war- I'd leave the gold and take the nations best booze, food, daughters, and tobacco. PS- the girl who is taking care of me right now gives me strength to hold on to my political convictions right now. She is a socialist and obama supporter. In the last few days (out of her mouth I've heard "Napoleon had nothing to do with the French revolution." "the economy is always good under a democratic president" (she tells me I'm splitting hairs when I explain the federal reserve and the lack of a presidents legislative powers), "if you lived in Canada you would only pay $5 dollars for your emergency room visit" etc. The last comment was in response to throwing away my vote to the Libertarians. I admitted that if health rapidly deteriorates at my relatively young age, that voting for Obama may end up being financially beneficial for myself. Then I remembered what it was to love my constitutional republic, "I vote libertarian in the hope that one day my future generations will have a republic governed by the letter of the law, an that they will not have the fruits of their labor stolen from them for an unconstitutional socialists system that would rip at the fabric of there the morality, their sense of responsibility, and that desire for independence that once (and could still again) make us great. - She called me a drama queen and told me to stop talking... oh well, she gives great head. |
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Post by Saggitariutt Jefferspin (ith) on Jul 28, 2008 17:17:06 GMT -6
So the now the big question...
What now?
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Post by HawksStock on Jul 28, 2008 17:19:18 GMT -6
So the now the big question... What now? I really don't know. I'll re-enter life in a couple of days, I guess I'll have to play it by ear. |
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Post by Saggitariutt Jefferspin (ith) on Jul 28, 2008 17:52:07 GMT -6
Good luck...substance abuse is a bitch.
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Post by TBELL on Jul 28, 2008 20:07:12 GMT -6
oh well, she gives great head.
That's awesome! But seriously, good luck with your health brother. |
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Post by BlckKnghtHwk on Jul 28, 2008 21:39:42 GMT -6
For those with healthy stomach's, you have no idea how lucky you are until your body turns against you. Suffering from Crohn's disease I ended up in CCU this past October as a result of my small intestine rupturing. That's some shit I don't wish upon anyone, the pain is unfathomable. 6 weeks in the hospital and 10 inches of intestine later and I'm doing great. Enjoy every bit of food and beverage your body allows you to consume, because a day might come when you can't and let me tell you, that fucking sucks. All the best to you Stock, keep on fightin the good fight.
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Post by Norm "racerhawk" Parker on Jul 28, 2008 21:42:18 GMT -6
Take care, Hawkstock.
I've seen many people slowly do themselves in through alcoholism over the years, and it would seem you got a huge wake up call. Physical withdrawal and having no stomach lining would seem to be powerful wake up calls. Do you have some support out there to quit drinking? Do you want to quit?
I am really concerned, and my experience in working with alcoholics and addicts is that the "play it by ear" thing is all too familiar to me. I mean no disrespect, but you sound pretty much like person who is alcohol dependent (an alcoholic) versus someone who is considered a substance abuser. You may need a firm plan when you leave the hospital. Again, no disrespect, I just think you need more help.
Take care, this won't get better on it's own. You need some folks who can help you.
...although blow jobs are a good start.
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Post by Saggitariutt Jefferspin (ith) on Jul 28, 2008 22:00:46 GMT -6
Take care, Hawkstock. I've seen many people slowly do themselves in through alcoholism over the years, and it would seem you got a huge wake up call. Physical withdrawal and having no stomach lining would seem to be powerful wake up calls. Do you have some support out there to quit drinking? Do you want to quit? I am really concerned, and my experience in working with alcoholics and addicts is that the "play it by ear" thing is all too familiar to me. I mean no disrespect, but you sound pretty much like person who is alcohol dependent (an alcoholic) versus someone who is considered a substance abuser. You may need a firm plan when you leave the hospital. Again, no disrespect, I just think you need more help. Take care, this won't get better on it's own. You need some folks who can help you. ...although blow jobs are a good start. superracerhawk is dropping some serious knowledge. I'd take it to heart. I know these are just message boards and are rather inpersonable, but that's the best advice I think you can get. |
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Post by TBELL on Jul 28, 2008 22:11:14 GMT -6
Take care, Hawkstock. I've seen many people slowly do themselves in through alcoholism over the years, and it would seem you got a huge wake up call. Physical withdrawal and having no stomach lining would seem to be powerful wake up calls. Do you have some support out there to quit drinking? Do you want to quit? I am really concerned, and my experience in working with alcoholics and addicts is that the "play it by ear" thing is all too familiar to me. I mean no disrespect, but you sound pretty much like person who is alcohol dependent (an alcoholic) versus someone who is considered a substance abuser. You may need a firm plan when you leave the hospital. Again, no disrespect, I just think you need more help. Take care, this won't get better on it's own. You need some folks who can help you. ...although blow jobs are a good start. I would listen too. My dad is 7 years sober after drinking all day every day for nearly 25 years. It can be done, you just need the support system around you. Good luck if you truely want the help. |
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Post by HawksStock on Jul 29, 2008 13:24:53 GMT -6
I get your concern, the thing is, I can't drink. Liquor, for the foreseeable future, would put me right back in the emergency room the next day. Until I can find a supplier of GI cocktails and delotnin, I'm done... game over. I went to a matinee the day after I got out, I thought popcorn wouldn't be so bad, without my "caretaker" doubling up my viicodin and giving me weed... I probably would have opted to return to the ER. The vicodin constipates me, so I'm either stopped up or have the runs from prune juice and milk of magnesia. So no, liquor is out, WAY OUT. Tomorrow when I get my probes done I'm going to ask for Xanax for my withdrawals, so I can say goodbye to the constipating vicodin.
Too all you who think vicodin is great (I used to), TRY TAKING IT REGULARLY, ungh.
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Post by Saggitariutt Jefferspin (ith) on Jul 29, 2008 13:29:52 GMT -6
I'm surprised your being perscribed Vicodin since you can become dependent on that too. Xanax can be addictive as well...you may look into a drug called Clorazepate...it's in the same family as Xanax, but not as habit forming. en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Clorazepate |
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Post by twinegarden on Jul 29, 2008 13:30:34 GMT -6
I get your concern, the thing is, I can't drink. Liquor, for the foreseeable future, would put me right back in the emergency room the next day. Until I can find a supplier of GI cocktails and delotnin, I'm done... game over. I went to a matinee the day after I got out, I thought popcorn wouldn't be so bad, without my "caretaker" doubling up my viicodin and giving me weed... I probably would have opted to return to the ER. The vicodin constipates me, so I'm either stopped up or have the runs from prune juice and milk of magnesia. So no, liquor is out, WAY OUT. Tomorrow when I get my probes done I'm going to ask for Xanax for my withdrawals, so I can say goodbye to the constipating vicodin. Too all you who think vicodin is great (I used to), TRY TAKING IT REGULARLY, ungh. Hope you get through all of this without any significant problems, HawksStock. Just be careful not to trade one substance for another. There is always the risk of saying "Hey, I'm not abusing alcohol" while walking right into another form of substance abuse. Regardless, it will be an uphill climb so my hats off to you. |
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Post by ignatiusreilly on Jul 29, 2008 13:43:03 GMT -6
HawksStock, sounds like you need an enema.
BTW, I am still enjoying reading your posts even though they are making sense now.
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Post by Norm "racerhawk" Parker on Jul 29, 2008 14:20:29 GMT -6
I'm surprised your being perscribed Vicodin bince you can become dependent on that too. Xanax can be addictive as well...you may look into a drug called Clorazepate...it's in the same family as Xanax, but not as habit forming. en.wikipedia.org/wiki/ClorazepateXanax is the worst. Really. It has a pretty short half-life, so it's really tough to get off the stuff without significant withdrawal. People just have a hell of a time kicking the stuff. Really. So, any doc that will easily prescribe Xanax to an alcoholic should really think twice about what they're doing. Try looking up some stories on the internet that people might have about their attempts to get off xanax. It's a benzodiazapine, so it's really similar to valium, ativan, and librium. It's cross-tolerant to alcohol. You're trading one problem for another. It's still the same problem though. If you do get xanax take less than a week's supply and get the hell off it. Seriously. |
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Post by germaine on Jul 29, 2008 16:37:39 GMT -6
Hope you get through all of this without any significant problems, HawksStock. Just be careful not to trade one substance for another. There is always the risk of saying "Hey, I'm not abusing alcohol" while walking right into another form of substance abuse. Regardless, it will be an uphill climb so my hats off to you. And the substance doesn't necessarily have to be a drug...it could be food, shopping, anything. I hope you have a strong support system (doctors, family, friends, coworkers) and work through it all. |
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Post by iagirl223 on Aug 3, 2008 15:55:21 GMT -6
Best of luck to you HawksStock! Do you come from an 'oh so proper family' who swept any signs of addiction under the rug?? Anyhoo I'll pm you if that's OK. Xanax - I always thought that was a drug mainly used for depression. Vicodin- Never had it. I hope you can stay away from it. If that means 24/7 blow jobs by your caretaker than so be it. Whatever works!  Valium and other benzos. Gosh I think you should stay away from those. I took Ativan back in the day when I went through chemo. I didn't ask for it they just gave it to me for sleeping. It did knock me out that's for sure. If you're into drugs chemo is the way to go. You get a baggie full of drugs everytime. I don't recommend it though.  Good luck HawksStock! Sounds like you have a great employer. Are you working? Does the caretaker go with you?  |
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Post by Saggitariutt Jefferspin (ith) on Aug 3, 2008 15:58:51 GMT -6
Xanax is typically used for acute anxiety symptoms. I used it for a while, but I'll leave at "it didn't go well". Racerhawk is correct in his assertions.
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Post by mattahawk on Aug 3, 2008 17:13:43 GMT -6
For those with healthy stomach's, you have no idea how lucky you are until your body turns against you. Suffering from Crohn's disease I ended up in CCU this past October as a result of my small intestine rupturing. That's some shit I don't wish upon anyone, the pain is unfathomable. 6 weeks in the hospital and 10 inches of intestine later and I'm doing great. Enjoy every bit of food and beverage your body allows you to consume, because a day might come when you can't and let me tell you, that fucking sucks. All the best to you Stock, keep on fightin the good fight. My cousin has Chrons disease. When he found out he was like 15/16 years old. They took him to a specialist out in Colorado and he has been seeing one in Mayo recently but won't go back because their is a whole bunch of shit they want him to do that he won't. He is in remission right now. |
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